Death.

No matter who you are, no matter how rich you are, how famous you are there's no avoiding death. In life we are all guaranteed death. This is something i've struggled with from a young age. My feelings towards death have changed over the years, when i was younger my fear stemmed around those around me dying, but as i've got older my fear surrounds the act of dying and the point of life.

Death surrounds us all the time, in daily life, and often we are desensitised to it. The stories we hear of people dying on the news or our daily thoughts and even jokes around death are a normal part of daily life.

Hypothetically, if we found a way to stop our cells from ageing and our organs giving up and we lived forever, would this be better than dying?

I often get immense fear when thinking about death, not the dying the part the what's next. Even if we lived for eternity, what's the point, what do we gain or achieve, surely living forever is the same as death - and that's what fucks with me, there's no winning to life.

Since i was young i have tried to suppress the thought as soon as i got them, they cause a rush of immense fear and straight away i will try and distract myself, but then in a day, a month of a year when my mind is less busy or i see something on tv these feelings will once again enter my mind and ill be paralysed with this deep thoughts.

Sometimes i can't even explain my own thoughts.